So here's what's going on...

Last Thursday I had a sonogram done because I had been having some cramping... not with any spotting, but it was really, really uncomfortable...basically since conception. What was found was a 7cm cyst on my left ovary(about the size of a lemon), an enlarged ovary (close to 9cm), and an empty yolk sac. There aren't really any worries about the ovary and cyst right now, but about the empty yolk sac. My uterus was measuring 7wks., which is how far along I was with the pregnancy. So, after my dr. reviewed it, he decided to basically put me on bed rest until this past Monday when I had another sonogram.

When we did that sonogram, the same thing was there... an empty yolk sac. My doctor re-examined me and said that things are progressing along with my body the way that they should for me to be 8 wks. pregnant, except the empty sac. He said that it could be a possible blighted ovum, but he wanted to wait and see. I'm going to explain a blighted ovum to you the way he explained it to me... stick with it, b/c it makes a lot of sense... The term blighted is related to corn crops, i.e., a blighted crop. What that is is when you go and plant your crop and the stalks come up, and everything looks perfect until you go to harvest and there is no corn on the stalk. Same thing here... everything looks perfect, I appear to be pregnant, my body thinks I'm pregnant until you look at the yolk sac and there's nothing there. Basically, the sperm fertilized the egg, created the yolk sac, but the cells never began splitting, hence, there's no baby.

So where do we go from here? Well, right now it's just a waiting game. I am off bed rest and able to work, so that's good. I have a Godly doctor and I praise Jesus for that. He wants to wait to do a D and C (which is what I feel will probably happen) just in case there is a one in a million chance that something could develop. This is actually an answered prayer. I had Googled my symptoms and read about a blighted ovum and that D and C's are usually necessary, but at the same time, there were women on message boards who said that they had been diagnosed with a blighted ovum, and then something developed the next week. Since reading this, I've been scared to death that I would have a blighted ovum, a D and C would be done pre maturely, and I would spend the rest of my life wondering "what if". On a side note, I think internet access should be illegal for anyone who is experiences medical issues... scary.

The bad part is, I continue to have pregnancy symptoms (morning sickness, fatigue, tenderness, etc.) but know I won't reap the reward. Overall, we are doing really well. We had a miscarriage before becoming pregnant with our sweet baby boy... had that never happened, we wouldn't have Preston. Sure, we'd have a baby, but it wouldn't be Preston, and I can't imagine my life without my precious little man.

God is faithful. Romans 8:28 says: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." We have no doubt that this is in His divine plan. We choose not to ask why, but rather try to just be patient and still and allow His will to work in our family.

We are blessed beyond measure. We have wonderful family, friends, and church who have been more than amazing during all of this. Y'all have no idea what all of your comments, texts, emails, calls, etc. have meant to us... and especially the prayers... keep praying, we have been comforted by them. Thank you so much! We'll keep you updated with what is going on and when we can expect some closure. Thanks again.


This translation is from the Message... it really hit home for me:

Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

Romans 8:26-28 The Message.